Inextricable
You're inextricable
I'm tangled up in the way I always felt
I've always felt it
So it's not really about trying or climbing anymore
I'm just giving in and going on
I'm too tired to try/you're too beautiful to want to
I'm watching a motion picture, sluggish and surrounding.
Empty
She erased her muddled thoughts
Between the sands of the serenghettie and the whispering pines
Underdeveloped and unchallenged terrains
That one could either find themselves or lose their hope in
Settled down in a vacancy that stretched for miles
Toodle
She walked away in a moment of weakness
She had all her chips lined up until he walked into the room
He overturned her table, said there will be no gambling here
He held her glare from across the table
He smiled when she failed to listen
To all of the important things they said
Blessing
This is it God
The one thing that I call my own
I hold it so dear and build myself upon it
But for you God
No longer do you want to be merely the inspiration
Merely the picture that I paint
You stand in front of me and I fall down
Nothing that I am is without you
Nowhere I run is untouched by you
And so you simply ask
I hear it so clearly
This is what you love, my dear
This is your gift
It is of me and from me
It is to me and about me
So let your hands hang loose
And your mind release, free of your control
I am your life force and the writer of your soul
Must I remind you you create nothing good and pleasing without me
You would become dull, dry and bored with what your hands make
So lift them to me sweet girl
Indulge in my word, and I will give you yours
Your fluidity and structure, originality and spark
You will find joy in what you do
Find joy in me
07/01/92
You were next, young boy.
You came into this earth and I was no longer alone.
You would cry and cry
Once you fought for your life
Is it any surprise you're one of the strongest most sensitive boys I know
I can't believe who you are now
You are more than I imagined you could be
You were always just the younger one
Now you are intelligent and funny and talented
You have your own identity
You are individual and unique
You are full of love and laughter
There is something that shines out of you, a sense of life
People want to be with you
I just stand in admiration of you
I can't wait to get to know you
I just want to talk to you, it makes me feel safe
I just want to know that you love me and approve of me
I still want to protect you, but you're also my friend
You are this boy who is going to all the places I've been and more
Becoming a young man
I'm glad you're mine.
5:00
Shivering shadows of trees lay across the ebony shades
Warm and soft and midday
Casting cares and slivers of fears
Into the stagnent silent air
Like a breath from some small sleeping thing
It doesn't move but is ever listening
All the birds precariously perched in their ode to the sun
Do not sing but survey all that is surrounding them
The blades of green seem dull in contrast to the sky above
Lit blue behind clouds that are so full and still
This is the pause in the day for light
True Story
I had a dream that I was a fool
And you were just as beautiful as ever
Once I made my way over to you
Someone woke me up
You're just as there as ever
But I've fought you off before
It's like you're waiting in the background
But I'm blocking you out
Purposefully for clarity
I'm not even sure what to do
When you are in full view
Those Days
Here we are in open view
Of the mice and the kittens
That play in our room
And here we lay
In a tangled aray
Of the sunshine and blankets
That scatter our bed
Now we walk in a slow parade
We've seen dolphins and showgirls
We've seen it all today
Floating away from a sun-set sky
I see a better reflection
Of the stars in your eyes
And for a moment you see
The mist on the edge
A warning that says
This isn't real
So close your lips
For a moment and think
Of a time I'm not here
And you will wake up
It's better this way
This Is Sad
Walked ten blocks
Just to meet you at the back door
Don't wear black you wont get far
Being beautiful
Never felt so hard
But we weren't ever this apart
I remember her shaking me
Til I was numb to her hands on my body
Then she would say to me
She never really felt anything when she saw me
Even after years
Mother you cried when I was born
Not tears of joy, no you would mourn
The day I was found, single cell life-form
A loveless mind births a loveless child
Suppose
All of my desires
To take you and break you
They are but momentous dreams
That fall from the trees
And all of these flowers
That slip through our hands like paperweights
They are the towers you built
In these cities of water
You can't believe what I've seen these days
I've seen fields of orange that make crops fail
From head to toe they cover their young
To hide them from you because you are not one
Every single messege
That they float down the stream
Is crashed on the rocks by their makers
Later on when they've grown
Every particle of dirt
That rests upon your body
It will become you
When you finally submit to the earth
When the clouds refuse to cry
And the lakes leak dry
When we finally find there's nothing to find
Then will we rest
Real Colour
I observed the colours beneath your skin today
The rose, yellow and blue of life
The true colours of ones face
Conveying not only descent
But radiance and submission and the failing of soul and body
Here in this subcovering of silent mechanics
The lines aren't blurred and there is no sharp feature
These mesmorizing colours of life
God Is Beautiful
When you find yourself amidst beauty,
Uncorrupted and absolute,
There Is God.
Shot
I have this aching thing inside that longs to be called on all my shots
Stuck door, broken in
Underestimated
Blank
To the unknown
Or barely so
I think of you
To not let go
It's simple here
So far away
But I still hope
To see you someday
A Girl's Story Pt. 2
With an inaugural sigh of relief
She came to a desecrated end
Unromantic andimpassively definite
She floats upon words and fleeting glares
Reflected off the coat-tales of paserbys
She would stop moment by moment
To pick a rose or check her watch
Her face never to the sky
But laid abreast
A bed of sordid affairs and endless conversation
All futile and filth
But once and a while she would make her way down
Elegantly and dressed
To the shipping docks where the cats and sailors would roam
And late enough, she could find a safe passage
And she would spend time there
With the song of barstools playing on the edge of her conciousness
She would sit on the outside with a glowering mystique
This is where she was
Miles and Miles
Step over your garden wall
Burry petals in the earth
Find treasure in a pile of stone
Grow life in the dirt
Give your riches to a shipwrecked man
Don't tell him where you found them
Burn your feet in this barren land
Far far from your home
You will walk these miles alone
You will be hungry, tired and cold
I will try and clear your way
But you will walk these miles alone
Bear fruit for the dessert sand
And feel nothing but the birth
Walk away with your head hung low
You still havn't found the truth
Feel the wood with your bony hands
Standing here for so many years
Look inside your own body now
It blisters and it fails
I will not stand back and watch you fly away
You are something else but I am not afraid
You are powerful, brilliant, a fighting match for me
I will walk these miles with you
Egad
If you envisioned a story
Poetry, Song
So disarming, Unhanded
Unharmed
A variation on all you imagined
Just a more perfect form
Well then take your thoughts
Beautiful, Dreams
Walk away
A Tree I Saw
tree streches out
million branches splayed
into the above
holding it's own universe
of leaves and spotted green
never collapsing
but expanding and holding size
a display of expansive life
To do, To do...
She cannot fly like the winter flies
With silver lining and crystal fear
Her presence is denounced with circumstance and trial
And she is left unhardened and afraid
She's a living vision of a sober night and day
With candle lit eyes and beams of the sun echoing in her gaze
She calls, singing into silence and livening the dead
With presence invariably breaking prisms through light
Wide Open
You walked over mountains and met me at the shore
You said you were breathless so I tried to give you more
How could a sad girl ever fill you up
You will never see into these black eyes
I will open your mouth and look for the disease
And when I find it I will suck it into me
You will no longer carry your pain
Your loss is my gain
You dug us a hole and we sat inside
When there's nothing else to do we run and hide
I am useless like an old machine
You wipe the broken face clean
You will open my mouth and look for treasure
And when you say it's safe I will spit it out
And people will see
The monster living beneath the beauty
This Boy Punk
You're always playing around in dirty basements
With a smoke in your mouth and blanks in your eyes
The darker you are the louder you yell
Who are you anyways
I always wonder about your covers
Or the drugs that you're on
If they're really your best friends
Or of you just hold out on being sincere
Because the world would see right through you
A Piece of Silly
Even when the darkness comes
You're still there
Lighting my way
With fireflies and golden hair
Even in the morning
You don't leave
Telling me
I'm the most beautiful thing you've seen
I'm afraid I'll learn the truth
That I'm not good enough for you
I'm afraid you'll finally find
Someone who's worth your time
But you keep saying the same thing
So I guess we fit
Oh Dear
I think I'll let myself dream
About honey and sunshine and sweet sweet sounds
For a little while
I'll think of you
It Rains at 2 p.m.
Perhaps after a dark night...
Rattled and shaken
Hating dreams for interrupting sleep
And not sleeping until too late
One wakes calmer
Like facing a storm and coming out strong
A relief and a certainty
With a bit more clarity in their eyes
