Chest
I feel as though encased in the warm safety
Like years ago in my parents bed
I think we'd be so much stronger if we stayed like this forever
Just held and unmoving
It's a strange feeling, just wanting to be with you
It seems habitual especially when I am short on feeling anything at all
And then the times when you never seem to be close enough
It's like an avalanche which I am incapable of consuming
This touch is unsatisfying and you move right past me
The understanding has deepened and risen
From my stomach to my chest
Sometimes it rises, about to bubble up through my throat and mouth
Making it's way frighteningly into fresh air
Unstifled I'm bound to tell you again and again
I don't even understand pine
You said you loved her
More times than she cares to remember
And I wonder if you're just jaded with the confusion of "love"
It's a bad case found in those who don't get what they want
And throw caution to the wind, whatever they need
You're just unsettled.
You're just a boy.
Nothing lets you forget the most expensive toy
So you pine and you pine and dammit you pine
And you beg and plead and paw
But you've forgotten a girls burn
How she runs for the deadly
She loves to be forgotten, it sharpens the play
She's over your eyes because you look too often
She's over your body because it's all for her
Your service is a commotion and your songs fall on dead ears
Your love grates on her heart, poor soul
It seems to being a losing game, catering to another
Frequent Conversation
Finally I've stopped "talking to myself" and letting you in on the conversation
You're a lot smarter than I am, and I like knowing you're around
I am longing for presence once again
Something about smiling equals falling in love
And something about limbs wrapped around body equals staying that way for a long long time
I am lacking brainwave connections, my finger hovers over "GO"
As well I stand in no man's land
Not exactly frightening, but desolate nonetheless
Foggy and empty, at least from this standpoint
Hovering...over....GO....
