Everything Sad Here
I'm too blue to feel for you
I've caught a deathly cold
And there's no feeling in my toes
And no amount of sunlight or heat
Could bring me back from this drifter's sleep
So be on your way
And try not to glance over your shoulder
As I slowly melt into the puddles beneath
Because I am unbreakable
And your thirst cannot be quenched
I'm A Sucker
I love you
For your reminders
Ow my ribs, my heart's beating too hard
The Finding Of Praesepe
For every trip down marble roads, or rose coated freeways against a pale ribboned sky, as the movement of marked awareness sifts it's way out like salt:
Oh bright ferocity
Eradicate wicked from your way
You are archaic in your action
And subsequently, in your parlay
Finding one against the glass
Pale, fast, gaze, lost
Mirrors of nothing are but invisible walls
So catch a reflection for once to define
Oh sweet seclusion
Find another to devour
Encamp yourself upon their souls
And fester and seep and sink and solidify
Illuminate please
Be lucid and comprehensive
Redundancy is only a hidden virtue
For the roots of the earth always stay in the earth:
Birth of Tree is Death and Repeat
Oh inherent imagination
Your origins deluge from the Divine
And the singings of the soul
Are symphonic from the Director of time
This is not evasive
It is fluent confusion
And breath after lonesome breath of terrific delusions
Falling in line to a proportionate scale
Heaping on reality to no prevail
ale ail fail derail
Start again
I'm Trying To Quit
It's been a life cycle week
A birth, death, and resurrect
Very plainly in my head
I need to begin the finish
And stop starting with you
I Can't Explain The State That I'm In
It's hit and miss these days
Everything else is forged or forgotten
I am an unlucky girl to wind up with the darkness
But that's my own discovery
Keep chipping at the stone
This process may be long and unfruitful
But I'm banded to the post
Tonight's Walk
The twisted moon pales against a brighter sky
And stars, the stronger among them, begin to take shape
If venom was present, it seeps through the sidewalk
Sometimes evil will submit defeat
I believe I can choose this night as most beautiful
Thinking of no one, none at all
I don't want to ever stop
C
I can't doctor you
I feel like whatever I say is useless
I guess I'm just good for listening anyways
Promise To A Friend
I know that I don't have answers
Most often I am not wise
I can't solve these mysteries
They are mysteries to me too
But I can be there for you
To listen and to comfort
I will be steadfast, reliable, and trustworthy
I will love you whe all others leave
That is the promise I will give you
God is a being I will never understand
I know it frustrates you
It frustrates me too
But He alone has taught me to love
So I will love you with all that He has given me
And maybe you will come to understand
The most important thing to ever know
Ranting and Raving and Blah Blah Blah
Are we playing a game of who doesn't get hurt first?
Am I just making things up
I feel like you can see right through me
I have to start building, that's all
I'd feel much safer if you were coming at me in a Citadel
Then if you weren't coming and I was unarmed
Have I skewed my own view of this?
I just need to forget about all of it
No One Tells You That Forever Feels Like Home
It's true
I really am sitting alone inside your head
Fortunately, for the time being, I'm safe
And comfortable
And fairly bruise-free
But I'm on my feet as soon as the proximity is close
And you leave me alone one more time...
Dang I'm sluggish
CCR Tonight
I don't think anyone remembers my name anymore
But
I think I've found a parallel universe...
It's you it's you it's you it's you!!!
I always thought I left the wanted to those who wanted them
So I'll just imagine someone thinks the same
And make the inconspicuous choice....
Pick me pick me!!!
Because perhaps I'm my own odyssey of sorts
A search for an internal stability and infinite enlightenment
This isn't supposed to sound new age
It's a fancy way of saying "learn"
I think you may be way out in left
And I'm slowly steering that way
As are progressively veer to the right
We can't get there unless we walk
Oh Soul Of Many, Find Yourself Someday
Show me irrefutable love
Dig it out of me
I will dig it out of you
There is beauty on every passing street
But I want to see yours
I think you can be livid
I think you are twisted and torn
And we are all fallible
I think you are vibrent
No you are radient...that's not even enough
You are undiluted, pure, concentrated
We are all whelmed at one time or another
By this or that, in it's securest form
In it's gold or it's carbon
In it's deep or in it's wholesome
It's not even the colours that sit below the surface of your skin
But the prisms and kaleidoscopes that surge and twist deep within your soul
Even the microscopic prints of your nuclei are beating
Expanding and inventing to the rhythm of your pulse
And at one time or another, everyone finds one another
And impresses themselves, whether upon their minds
Or their senses
We're all left tingling, their remains are ringing in our ears
I think we can find ourselves reverberating in the hallways of our mind's canals
I want to catch the electricty that has left your fingertips
A beacon to your hope astray
boyboyboyBOY ARGH
I don't know
Looking back, I couldn't tell you it ever ended
There was an affinity
And ticking down the minutes
Seconds
Til we were faced with whatever was there
And suddenly the dam cracks
And we can't even comprehend this thing
Like white noise
Raging and colliding
And I know from experiance
I can't seem to avoid it
Inescapable
You throw me for a complete tailspin
I'm bracing myself now
And you're not even close
Part 2937293729739173982173....The Continuation.
A Childhood Story of Moving Away (additioned)
You wont blink an eye
When I tell you
We're moving away
And I wont look back
As we're driving away
It's all gone now
We hung all our things on the walls
Right where they used to be
Now everything is mismatched and out of line
We don't belong
And when we woke up to the sound of a tree fall
We both agreed that this isn't what we want
We told the giants and prayed to all the stars
I dream of swinging in our backyard
You openly cry
Over all the misconceptions
We have of the world
You wont even hide
Your downfalls or your pride
They're all out on the table
Over the bike paths on that early morning
We found our way back to the old neighbourhood
It hasn't changed much but boy it looks lonely
Did we really say we left this for good?
I've had these words in my head, whether they are poetic or not...I don't care...
Let's get groovy
I just want to dance
It's a riot
It's righteous
We're all letting go
This is the shot, kids
The shake, the shanty
So forget it, up and down
It's a groove, it's delicious
A Sieve Of My Thoughts, Into You
Beauty is a notion
Soon it will dry and wrinkle.
Do we hold back for sake of propriety?
Or are we scared
Do I make up the musings in my head?
Or am I lacking faith?
I would like to believe some of them
But I'm a girl with a demanding imagination
Capable of goliath feats
In a mere brain wave
In moments like these I am taught to sit
There are many I things I currently am inable to comprehend
And most which, simply, I never will
So here is my being
My in and out
My all
My thoughts and imaginings
Fears and dreams
The entire spectrum of who I am
It is yours
Because this is Your time
My life I cannot control, it is only safe in Your hands
In my earnest scramblings to achieve, I only become tired and worn out
Left to Your strength, Your will, all will be done
All will be good
Oh
Don't take me down with your lies
I know you don't have any power at all
But a simple moment of weakness tears me up inside
And I'm bruised and wounded
And your repeted and relentless battery causes the scars to stockpile
I don't want to listen to you anymore
I don't want to hear your whispers of cruelty
I become ugly inside and out
It's not true, I could scream it
In my heart I know it's not true
In a vague recollection I try to fight you on this
But in my mind I am succeptable
And my defenses so easily break
Oh God help me now
He's coming at me again
And I am so weak
God I am so fragile to the core
I believe him
It makes me weep
Take it out of me God
These scars have covered me again
I don't know if I can even see myself anymore
Hide me please
Keep me free of him
Cover my ears from his threats
They are so hurtfull and grotesque
I am so needy of your affirmation
I beg to be beautiful
God it's such a heartache
It's so heavy on my soul
I don't want to be so captivated by my own shortfalls
So entranced by all those lies
God please hold me
I am so weak
Ciel
Brain waves
Patterns from the sky
Dreams
Collapsing stars
Intercoastal weaves
Ideas
Gamma rays
From celestial bursts
Depression
When the sun doesn't shine
Ooh Snap!
I am not here to be spoken at
About the menial happenings of your day to day life
My exsistance, in this moment, is not to be a listening post
On which you lean, and mumble the currency
Honestly?
I find you boring.
...and self-involved.
Ugh
Time tables keep us now
Chained to the walls and the floors of our buildings
Abrupt and dispassionate
Often there are no words to describe a wasteland
Until we all erode into the ground
Like a push-button from below
Our limbs and joints become liquified and usless
And we faint from our skulls to our toes
Not Worth It
You don't find me throwing myself at you
I'm not a love drunk
So don't tell me we're all just a waste of time
Because I'll give it right back any second
Fact---iction
Look
I will find you someday
Or my body wont be able to deal
My soul will deflate into the base of my spine
What is it about this fixation that just wont let up
Baby
Lets party like it's 1989
Swimming around in the bellies of our mothers
There's no place better I tell you,
No place at all
Our bodies don't even work for our breath
Sky, Us, Satellite, Goodbye.
I don't think life can hold us much closer than this
Strung out below, our droplets of time
While we, cradled near, are waiting to fall
How these moments seem to shy away
Like a satellite, streaking across the endless sky
We are seen for a second or two
And then we fade
Up There
Shine out loud
Hold me high
You don't need me
But I'm worth every try
Stand a head above
Your gifts simply flow
I will give up my plans
Or you will follow after mine
I wont even have to think
I'll just know you're true
Compassion plenty
Anger few
I've given up trying to imagine you.
Poor Little Flies On The Wall
Will we get a chance to tell them
Before all the secrets burn out
It's nothing new, honey
Nothing new
Today's Clouds
The clouds inflate and dispell
Becoming cracked and pale
Like an albertan topograph
Or the stomach skin of an elephant
I try to catch movement in the corners of my eyes
But movement hides itself when directly approached
