My ramblings....

I Need You SO Baddly

All the fear I ever saw
How wrong I was

That's usually how it goes
Me, quick to move, jump, speak, yell
Not to consider, look ahead, be aware

I need to be still now
Clear headed
...and brave

I don't neccessarily feel clarity
Or calm
But more good
And true
I feel honest
And straight forward

I may be wary
...and scared

I don't know what I'm doing
God
I need you.

I know, my saying that is a bit redundant
I have to keep reminding myself because there's always something in me that wants to take control, thinks I have chance...
Not at all
I am terrified of holding anything in my hands
Terrified of the possibilites of me screwing it up
Which...is about...99.8% possibility, if you'd like an amount
So whatever it is God, You have my heart
It is fully completely yours because most of the time I drop it and break it and just can't take care of it
Please be gentle with it, speak firmly to it.
Let it know what to do
Because I sure don't

I have a hit and run mentality
Unfortunately
I have a habit of bolting like a dear in headlights
Even when I know I'm safe
No, that's a lie, it's because I don't have a clear view of safety
This is life God, and it freaks me out
Hold my heart God, tightly to Yours

Let me listen to your breathing, as the minutes pass

Nothing is without
All is with You

posted by Unknown @ 11:16 AM